Thursday, February 12, 2009

The scattered thoughts of a new "referral" mother

Now that we are 2-days post-referral, I have to share some of the crazy things that have been flitting in and out of my mind over the past 48 hours.

"How is it that I can be so surprised to finally see their faces, and yet somehow in my heart, I have seen and known them all along."

"YIKES!!!!!" upon looking at the amount of money needed by AWAA to accept our referral. "THAT'S not happenin' so easily!!"

"Why isn't Tony here so he can deal with all 'dumb' financial side of the paperwork?"

"How in the world can I re-arrange the rooms to be adorable AND fit an extra boy?"

"That smile. Those eyes. My God truly is the Master Craftsman and Master Artist."


"What if we completely overwhelm them? What if they can't deal with the dog? (that wouldn't be so bad) How in the world am I going to communicate with them??"

"Are we crazy?"

"Wow. Wow. Wow!!!!!!!!"

"I hope Sam doesn't corrupt B. TOO much!"

"Five kids. How FUN!!"

"Five kids. AHHHHHHHH!!!!!"

"What bozo created all this paperwork mess anyway? OBVIOUSLY s/he is NOT an adoptive parent!"


"How in the world am I going to have time to do all this paperwork, be single mommy right now AND decorate rooms?"

"God is in control, God is in control, God is in control..."

"HUGE shoes to fill. Overwhelming. Wonderful. Beautiful. Terrified. Here we go!!!!"

Grace and Peace,


Susan said...

You're right to think all of that! Hee hee! We are so happy for you!

Love you! Susan

jill coen said...

I think those are normal thoughts. :) You forgot go with dresses...ruffle butts! :)

The Gillman Family said...


I sware you are living our life - only difference is there are two of us to get through the jumbled thoughts. I hope you are hanging in there - we are praying all comes together so smoothly for you since your husband is away right now. I seriously wish someone would have told us of the referral frenzy!!!